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I have a question for myself, what happen if I can't get the student visa on time?
Would I lose faith in God?
Would I hate God?
Would I became grumbled?
Why God didn't listen my pray?
Didn't I trust in God, or I lack of Faith?
God didn't want me to go back HK?
God gave me a lesson to learn?
What should I do?
Typical answer is, keep trusting in God, wait for his guidance patiently, believing he give the best always, any Christians can say that (easily, isn't it?), But the truth is, I am just human being, always being weak and with doubt, how would I trust in Him when the situation is totally out of control? I want to say that waiting is the most torturing period in Christian Life(at least for me, I just experience 3 months ago).
Looking back to Jesus, he waited for 30 year to start his ministry; he spent 40 days in the dessert before he started preaching(Matt 4). So, for me, What is time frame? I knew that there is no answer. Like Job, I am sure he didn't know when do the suffering time pass, he even thought this suffering will not end and ask God to take his life.
Practically, pray to our heavenly father is the only way to comfort us. Pray for his mercy and grace, forgiving our sin, expressing all my feeling, good or bad, even complain to him. He is the one who created me, he understand me more than myself, ask for his guidance and keep moving on my daily life, such as reading bible, doing my work, caring people, loving my neighbor.
I don't know whether I can still trust in God when I am in suffering or frustration in the future, but one thing I am very sure, God is always be with us, he still listen our prayer all the time.
Seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you. (Matt 6:33 KJV)
Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceeds out of the mouth of God. (Matt 4:4 KJV)
Ask, and it shall be given unto you; Seek, and ye shall find; Knock, and the door shall be opened unto you. (Matt 7:7 KJV)
Waiting is probably one of the biggest struggles for me. The uncertainty of not knowing what God has in store for us can really tear us apart sometimes. Here's a nice song. It's called "Teach me Lord to wait".
ReplyDeletehttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ohegEWA_sr4