Thanks for everyone who read this blog/like this note, and whose put their comments.
I have a question for myself, what happen if I can't get the student visa on time?
Would I lose faith in God?
Would I hate God?
Would I became grumbled?
Why God didn't listen my pray?
Didn't I trust in God, or I lack of Faith?
God didn't want me to go back HK?
God gave me a lesson to learn?
What should I do?
Typical answer is, keep trusting in God, wait for his guidance patiently, believing he give the best always, any Christians can say that (easily, isn't it?), But the truth is, I am just human being, always being weak and with doubt, how would I trust in Him when the situation is totally out of control? I want to say that waiting is the most torturing period in Christian Life(at least for me, I just experience 3 months ago).
Looking back to Jesus, he waited for 30 year to start his ministry; he spent 40 days in the dessert before he started preaching(Matt 4). So, for me, What is time frame? I knew that there is no answer. Like Job, I am sure he didn't know when do the suffering time pass, he even thought this suffering will not end and ask God to take his life.
Practically, pray to our heavenly father is the only way to comfort us. Pray for his mercy and grace, forgiving our sin, expressing all my feeling, good or bad, even complain to him. He is the one who created me, he understand me more than myself, ask for his guidance and keep moving on my daily life, such as reading bible, doing my work, caring people, loving my neighbor.
I don't know whether I can still trust in God when I am in suffering or frustration in the future, but one thing I am very sure, God is always be with us, he still listen our prayer all the time.
Seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you. (Matt 6:33 KJV)
Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceeds out of the mouth of God. (Matt 4:4 KJV)
Ask, and it shall be given unto you; Seek, and ye shall find; Knock, and the door shall be opened unto you. (Matt 7:7 KJV)
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Monday, May 10, 2010
Experience trusting in God
I have experienced a down and up time today. It is regarding to the Student Visa.
I lodged the application of student visa on 19 April, about one month ago. You may knew that I planned to go to HK for a month on next Sunday. I am so worrying that I can't get the visa on time. If I haven't got the student visa, which allows me to multiple enter Australia, I will get trouble to enter Australia one month later.
I went to immigration department this morning, planning to get a Bridging Visa B which allows me to enter AU when the student visa in the process. After waiting for more than an hour, the officer told me that I need to get the approval of my case officer to get Bridging Visa B, so I called the hot line centre, they said I can't talk to the case officer and it will takes more than 4 weeks to process the Bridging Visa B. The only thing that I can do is waiting the student visa to be granted. Sigh!... I knew that, I knew that going to happen, they are no so helpful. I won't call you if I can wait! I am calling for advise, I mumble to myself. I was so disappointed, I seems to be ruined my plan again! The possible situation is , if I could't get the Student Visa before I leave, I may need to forfeit the air ticket, as it can't change the departing date. I felt really hopeless, I don't have plan B for this, maybe forfeit a $1000+ air ticket is a plan B! I was wondering if I still leave on next Sunday night without a student visa, would it cease the application of student visa?
After I went back to home, checking my email, I found an email from immigration centre, they said I didn't provide a copy of OSHC receipt which I had sent to them before, so I called the hot line again, but I didn't expect them to keep the call record, the operator informed me that I just called them an hour ago. I was just wondering what document they actually asking for. The officer didn't answer my question, so I sent the OSHC receipt to my case officer again and left my phone no., so that they could contact me ASAP. I was so disappointed, it might take another week for them to process the student visa.
After a while, my 'Cutie' housemate, Ivan, came to me and asked me"why you look so sad?"Yup, I am not the person to hide my feeling in my home. I told him where did I go and what did I do, then he just simply said"No worry, if God want you go to HK, he will let you go" Such a helpful reply! He didn't comfort me but try to teach me, it seems I don't have faith in God! I felt a bit angry but after I calmed down I just realize this issue is just out of his understanding, so I just told him it is the matter that I may make wrong decision. I shouldn't hope that I can get some support from him. He still young and innocent in some sense.
Two hour later, a miracle happened! They granted a student visa to me, all the problem solved.
The point I want to draw from this experience is, what can I do if I made wrong decision? How can I ask God for help? and What should I do after I ruin my plan?
First, I think I should accept myself that I can't always make the most appropriate / right decision, but I should pray before I made it. Putting in practice, I should pray before I do the online application of student visa and bought the ticket.
Second, I should accept the issue will come out at any time, it just part of our life. No matter how perfect my plan is, some issues still come out. It maybe God want me to learn how to trust in him.
Finally, weighting which choice is benefit to my spiritual life and a better way to serve God.
I lodged the application of student visa on 19 April, about one month ago. You may knew that I planned to go to HK for a month on next Sunday. I am so worrying that I can't get the visa on time. If I haven't got the student visa, which allows me to multiple enter Australia, I will get trouble to enter Australia one month later.
I went to immigration department this morning, planning to get a Bridging Visa B which allows me to enter AU when the student visa in the process. After waiting for more than an hour, the officer told me that I need to get the approval of my case officer to get Bridging Visa B, so I called the hot line centre, they said I can't talk to the case officer and it will takes more than 4 weeks to process the Bridging Visa B. The only thing that I can do is waiting the student visa to be granted. Sigh!... I knew that, I knew that going to happen, they are no so helpful. I won't call you if I can wait! I am calling for advise, I mumble to myself. I was so disappointed, I seems to be ruined my plan again! The possible situation is , if I could't get the Student Visa before I leave, I may need to forfeit the air ticket, as it can't change the departing date. I felt really hopeless, I don't have plan B for this, maybe forfeit a $1000+ air ticket is a plan B! I was wondering if I still leave on next Sunday night without a student visa, would it cease the application of student visa?
After I went back to home, checking my email, I found an email from immigration centre, they said I didn't provide a copy of OSHC receipt which I had sent to them before, so I called the hot line again, but I didn't expect them to keep the call record, the operator informed me that I just called them an hour ago. I was just wondering what document they actually asking for. The officer didn't answer my question, so I sent the OSHC receipt to my case officer again and left my phone no., so that they could contact me ASAP. I was so disappointed, it might take another week for them to process the student visa.
After a while, my 'Cutie' housemate, Ivan, came to me and asked me"why you look so sad?"Yup, I am not the person to hide my feeling in my home. I told him where did I go and what did I do, then he just simply said"No worry, if God want you go to HK, he will let you go" Such a helpful reply! He didn't comfort me but try to teach me, it seems I don't have faith in God! I felt a bit angry but after I calmed down I just realize this issue is just out of his understanding, so I just told him it is the matter that I may make wrong decision. I shouldn't hope that I can get some support from him. He still young and innocent in some sense.
Two hour later, a miracle happened! They granted a student visa to me, all the problem solved.
The point I want to draw from this experience is, what can I do if I made wrong decision? How can I ask God for help? and What should I do after I ruin my plan?
First, I think I should accept myself that I can't always make the most appropriate / right decision, but I should pray before I made it. Putting in practice, I should pray before I do the online application of student visa and bought the ticket.
Second, I should accept the issue will come out at any time, it just part of our life. No matter how perfect my plan is, some issues still come out. It maybe God want me to learn how to trust in him.
Finally, weighting which choice is benefit to my spiritual life and a better way to serve God.
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